FAKE BEER

I hide my tears behind a fake beer
Keeps my arrow straight and more sincere
I've cried into this lake
Well that's just cupid's fate
And if I could I'd kick him straight in the rear

I hide these tears behind a fake beer
Seems better than divulging my hopes and fears
I wonder what it'd take,
To win a little dough upon my plate
Because I'm hungry and this bucks lookin' mighty sheer

I hide my tears behind a fake beer
Better than gettin' pissed with all these steer
As the drinks take them away,
Tomorrow's hell we'll have to pay
And the end of my old liver is drawing near

SECRETLY

I feel like my back is being
Dismembered bit by bit
Vertebra by Vertebra
Muscle through nerves
Cell by cell
Silently I sit
Hurts like hell
Quietly I smile
Grin and bear it

FIREWORKS GO OFF IN THE SKY

Fireworks go off in the sky
They kiss the world goodbye
I can hear them in premature splendor
The Heavens are their fated endeavor

The fireflies buzz through the fields
The spectators in love with the deal
The cannons in the sky are so surreal
Homage to forefathers by patriotic feel

Along the roads spectators watch at bay
Humming along picnic blanket maze
Forgotten are the moments of their dismay
Saluting the fathers the American way

We turn our heads this Fourth of July
Will never return, nor question the whys
When woe has forgotten to turn the tide
Igniting our love high in the sky

I miss my love

I miss my love so much
I'm about to totally
Break Down.
Thank God for my dog
If not for her,
I'd totally lose it.

Filling up the lonely days
With empty voices
And Empty Activity
Empty Conversation
Busy Errands. Busy Art.

All I want to do
Is be with him
Be near him
Feel our bodies
So close again.
Soon I hope
He will return
I cry and wait
And I count the days.

I miss my love.
I miss him so.

WHEN LOVE HAS GONE AWAY

Love Can change you
Color your eyes with roses and pearls
Cloud your decision with doubt and envy
Uncertain diluted tales

Oh Love, you fallible friend
Speaks open and widely
Your tongue's on fire
And your lore unforgotten

Now tell me sweet devil, dear Jesus
You slave to opiates, hopes and lies
Can you survive and withstand the potency
Of your corrupt treacherous ways?

I beg you and ask you for mercy
When you leave me here
Waiting at the grave
Alone, begging and forgotten
When love has gone away

EARTHLY DELIGHTS

My pillow is tear stained
My heart is used
Left to the beating
Of this deathly gloom
Locked to a wall
And tethered to a tire
Set my hair and corpse on fire

Shered like a lamb
In spring time she rose
From deep beneath a slumber
And tattered silk worn
Awoken by the sound
Of birds high in flight
A long sought road
To earthly delights

CONCRETE CAGE

Here alone sitting in this room
Fermenting like a bottle of
Unsuspecting doom
Rotting and coroding this cesspool in me
Left to the devices of my solemn debris

Falling into oblivion
In my mind this dismay
What becomes of tomorrow
And come what may
Trying to save the rest of me
To find my escape
From the chains and confines
Of this concrete cage

ROCKY TIDES

A fire beneath me
Suddenly brave
Again, my cousin calls to me
My Cosmic kin who knows
My plight

Tools to be given
Governed and may
Fail to suit me
In my awkward ways

A broken tragedy
All women whose hearts
He's worn
Tied to his charms
By Rusted Chains
'til death we've sworn

By midnight lone marauders
Witness Distant lovers flight
Death Pacts by numbers
Sworn through Such
morbid delight

Too young to give in to
Too stubborn for good-byes
Oh captain,
shall swim through
Water of these rocky tides

AS NOT TO DROWN

My face is green
My heart is bruised
Thrown overboard
Into a dismal sea
Pretty as I float there
Blue and lacking air
A tragic madonna who has
Lost her life

Given away too much
Gained little in return
The sage and clay sting my cheeks
As I remember drowning
In that murky well
One Sunday afternoon

The bucket overhead
Catapulted below
Hit me and cracked open my skull
Blood and water dripping into my eyes
Out my nose
Struggle to reach it and be lifted up
Above the bricks and rocks
Back to the land I used to call home
And into the arms of lovers, and strangers
Who tried to save me from that fate

Years later, I returned to the water
So dark and cold
Shallow breaths to hold
Try to stay afloat despite the
Weight of my gown
Give in to anything
As not to drown

FORGOTTEN DREAMS

You are on my tongue and lips
Quiet, like a pillow
you fadeaway

Not knowing how I think of you
Wishing for a kind touch from a distance
The quiet art of make-believe
A losing game

At night a war wages inside me
Blood and catastrophe pulse through my veins
I am a victim and captive to the eyes
That haunt me
Green like turtles in murky seas

Falling and drowning
A voice might taunt me
And the ghosts and memories
Echo through forgotten dreams

BEGGING FOR MORE

Sometimes I wish you knew
Exactly how I felt
Spray you with bullets
Still Valentine Love letter Massacre
Take my kindness for granted
Take my money and car
Yelling at me for what you've lost
when it really ain't my fault, it ain't my fault

Three years come and gone so quickly
And how you bleed me like a leach in a jar
Leaving me for dead, barely alive and breathing
I'll come around again
And make more to feed you and your friends

Pretty face is what I have to offer
Hide in the shadows of your glorious rays
Alone and quiet sitting in a back room
Waiting for you to return someday

The bleeding of the meat
And my body
Let my soul fester away
Like a leach on a shelf in a dark room
Hungry and begging for more